Made this for your Sam - the hearts of his parents / Rhonda Rhodes Craig Sehon's Mom /. Joe Rhodes's Wife (visitor)Read >>
Made this for your Sam - the hearts of his parents / Rhonda Rhodes Craig Sehon's Mom /. Joe Rhodes's Wife (visitor)
I created this for my son's memorial page several months ago < www.craig-sehon.memory-of.com >. When I was reading your comments I saw where "Dad" had visited Sam every day with "one liners" ...the true deph of his heart .... I miss you son, I love you son.....and I had to share this graphic I made Craig with you guys. It is going on twelve years now since my Craig slipped away and it does get a bit easier but only through the power of the Lord's help. May you find peace to journey forward.
Hey Sam~ Happy 21st Birthday (a day late) ~Said it, thought it, remembered it and Embraced your birthday All Day yesterday, just never got to the computer to write it. Such a great day full of memories of the first day I held you in my arms in awe, to 18 and 1/2 years of unconditional Love, alot of Fun, some Worry, many Surprises and much Pride, to the last day I saw your handsome face and looked into your kind and yet mischievous eyes.
Your birthday celebration was perfect with the exception of you not being with us. We only could guess what you would have wanted. Being your "21st" , So we HAD to begin our celebrating at the stroke of midnight at a bar!! Of course with some friends of yours (Devin, Sean, Aaron & Ryan K) along with friends of ours (Denise, Laura, and Wendy & Mike Kearns)!! Though emotional at times, like hearing Incubus immediately when I walked into the bar, what a great time we had "closing" Crown & Anchor on your birthday morning~and of course the Patron shots!! (yes, me too~ bet you wish you could have been there "just" for that-ha).
We then had your 21st birthday party at the house later that evening~ and I think/HOPE just the way you would have wanted it (maybe? a lil' similar to the ones you used to have when we were away). I don't think I will ever get over the amount of friends you have, and I'm always overwhelmed, proud and in awe of the love, loyalty and respect they have for you (and show to us). And we LOVE every single one of them for their forever friendship with you, and for the great people they are. Hope you got the messages from the balloons we signed and released from the golf course again this year. . . Greg even tied a cigarette to the end of one, lit it, took one toke and let it go for you.
Cleaning up today has been bittersweet. The hard realization that your still not here, and the not knowing when I/we will ever see you again.
Love You Sam with all of my Heart 4ever and Always . . . xo, mom
Thinking of you / Kellie Davies (friend)
Hey Sam, Wishing you were still here. My heart aches! I think of you and your family all the time. You are so loved and so missed! Please watch over your family and help them to find some peace every day in your memory. We love you Sam and love your family! Close
Hey Sam ~ Almost 2 years and it still seems like you should be walking in the door any minute, then either running up the stairs 2 steps at a time (towards your room) or squating in front of the frig. searching for something to eat.
Some say that with time it gets easier ~ I think that those who say that have never experienced losing a child. It isn't getting easier and we have no choice but to learn to live with the pain and heartache, we just become good pretenders. Our lives have been changed forever without our consent, and with it the future we had envisioned along with many of our hopes and dreams are no longer available to us.
I've become a collector of quotes these days ~ I know, I'm "crazy", like you often told me. But once in awhile I find one and that brings me comfort and they help me to live my life, one step at a time. Some help me daily in dealing with my grief. My fear is that my grief is so strong that I am not giving back to others as much as I should and am becoming selfish, and negative. It is so easy to live in the past, it's the future that is hard ~ meeting and making new friends who don't know me as your mom.. One of my greatest fears for the future is family, friends and even acquaintances forgeting that you are forever my Son, and that I am forever Sam's Mom.
Some favorite quotes that have touched me;
"Courage doesn't always roar sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying I will try again tomorrow"
"You cannot always have happiness, .. but you can always give happiness"
" just when the caterpillar thought the world was over .. it became a butterfly . . .
The last quote really touches my heart because I as a mom who ferociously loves her children, I tried to protect you and shelter you from so much and yet inspite of that ~ You had to experience and learn your own lessons, forge your own path and learn from your mistakes. I remember asking you once "Sam do you think before you act?, Do you stop and ask yourself, what will happen if I do this" and you replied "Yes, and there is a 50/50 chance I'm going to be caught, and it's usually worth the risk" That reply not only scared me, but that was when I realized that there is only so much I could do as a parent to control your actions, BUT I could AlWAYS Love You, ALWAYS offer guidance, ALWAYS give boundaries, and ALWAYS be there when You fell ~knowing that with the consequences (of the fall) you were growing and learning in your way. I bought myself a plaque about the time you graduated Sam, that made me smile and made me think of you and All you had gone through to achieve/ to become who you were:
(plaque says)
"We delight in the beauty of the butterfly,
but rarely admit the changes it has gone through
to achieve that beauty."
I Love You Sam I will never fully understand, why You had to leave us too early. But I will live my life a better person because I am forever your mom.
i miss you. / Karlee Davies (2nd family )
sam, i was just thinking about you today and how much i miss you. you have such an amazing family=). we love you and we hope that you can keep us all strong.
Wish You Were Here (Mom) Hey Sam~ Angie and I flew to Cabo San Lucas to meet and spend sometime with Dad and Vince. Can't help but wonder if you would have driven with Dad and Vince down to Cabo, flewn with Angie and I to Cabo or possibly stayed home. I'm betting you would have found a way to come, being 20 you'd take advantage of the ideal place to drink cerveza's and margarita's with your brother, dad and I. ~You are missed so much in our everyday lives, and if it's possible so much more when we are away from home. I can't help but wonder what You and Vince would be up to after dinner each night if you were here, I'm sure there would be stories to tell. Where now Vince is with us at the hotel. I feel gyped (sp) that your not here, but also feel that Vince has been gyped even more ~ this is a trip for brothers and this year you and Vince would have been the perfect age to enjoy it together. ~Funny, when the girls and I got off the plane, got our baggage and found Dad and Vince outside the airport, the first person Dad introduced to us was a young man named Samy! I have to believe that there is a message there. Maybe your way of telling me that you were there with Dad and Vince~ and possibly your way of saying hi to your mom!? *I Love You Sam Forever and Always, Mom xoxoClose
Mother's Day without You! (5-13-07 11:10pm) (mom)Read >>
Mother's Day without You! (5-13-07 11:10pm) (mom)
Hi Sam, The only thing I wanted for Mother's Day was to be in Mammoth this year. I miss you so much everyday! I just needed to feel/be closer to You, to be at your rock, to see your snowboard on the Biglow's house and to smell the fresh Mammoth air You Loved so much.
Your rock isn't covered in snow any longer and all the rocks we brought up over Thanksgiving from your friends and family are still there surrounding yours, even the rosary that was blessed and left for you. It was a beautiful day today. I wish I could have stayed for hours.
You know: My First Mother's Day you were not quite a month old yet and really shouldn't have been here yet. From the beginning ~You were in a rush to begin your life. You were My First Baby, The Love of My Life ~ and because of You, I was a Mom. You changed My life! You made Me happy! You made me feel Content. You made Dad and I a Family. As much as I desperately Miss You! and even though I still can't imagine my life without you. I Thank God for Everyday I had You in My Life.
HEY SAM... IT SEEMS YOU'VE BEEN ON MY MIND, YA KNOW I JUST LOST MY MOM, SO I MAY BE A LITTLE...EMOTIONAL!!! AND I CAN'T LET HER KNOW, SO I FIGURE, YOU TWO ARE IN THE SAME PLACE, AND SO IF YOU BUMP ONTO HER...LET HER KNOW, I'M OKAY. I KNOW YOU'LL DO THAT, CUZ THATS THE KINDA GUY YOU ARE, YOU ARE SOOOO LUCKY TO OF HAD THE FAMILY YOU DID, AS AM I...AND ALL OF US, MISS YOU AND MY MOM. I SAW YOUR UNCLE TONY YESTERDAY, YEP, SAME OLD TONE!!! THE JOKER. IT WAS GOOD TO SEE HIM. BIG HUG TO YOU AUNT DENISE
SAM, JUST SO YOU KNOW...AND I THINK YOU DO, YOU ARE SO MISSED, HAVE YOU NOTICED??? YOU MAY BE PHYSICALLY GONE, BUT LET ME TELL YOU, YOU ARE VERY MUCH HERE, YEP...HERE WITH US!!! AND THAT MY SWEET LITTLE GUY, WILL NEVER CHANGE! YEAH, YOUR NOT A "LITTLE GUY", BUT TO ME, I WILL ALWAYS HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS, ROCKING YOU TO SLEEP. MISS YOU LOVE,AUNT DENISE
Happy Birthday Sam!! / April 18, 2007 (10:42pm) (Mom) WOW, You would have been "20". "20" with the Whole World at your finger tips, just waiting for you to make your choices in life. All I can think about is what would you have been doing Now, Today! Though, really I think about that pretty much every day. As hard as today was not having you here, I kept reminding myself that today is suppose to be "the Happy Day" because it's the day you first came into my life 20 years ago, and for that I will be Forever Grateful. You know that corny saying: “Its better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all” YOUR FRIENDS! I know they were more like family to You, and I never have and never will doubt the BOND you had with them. I never stop being in ahh of the loyalty and love they all still have for you and because of that~ the incredible love and support they show to us! I loved all the visits, calls, text messages, etc. that we received today (and the past week asking “what are we doing for your birthday“). It will be so Great Celebrating your Birthday again on Sunday with so many of them. “Smiley’s” will be here!! That should make you smile!! (remember our last lunch with Devin?) . . . . . . . . . . Miss You!! Wish I could Sing Happy Birthday to You and give You presents!! Wish I could hug you & tell you how much I Love You! Wish I could stay up late waiting for you to come home safe (because it made me feel better to do so). Wish I could look into your eyes & tell you how proud you make me. Wish I could meet the girl who was going to steal your heart forever & share the “adventures” I do know about when you were growing up (smile). Wish I could hear your laugh as you tell me about your day ~ just one more time! Everyday, I Wish You Were Here. Love You Always & Forever, momClose
Knowing you / Marilyn And Ken Warnberg (Joyce's Aunt and Uncle )Read >>
Knowing you / Marilyn And Ken Warnberg (Joyce's Aunt and Uncle )
Dear Sam, We always knew how much your mom and dad loved you and sacrificed for you, but we didn't get up to see you enough to really get to know you. But, sweetheart, now we are getting to know your heart and how it overflowed with love. You just bless us every time we read a word from your friends and loved ones. I trust God alone and His plan for our lives, and I see your life touching many more as the years pass and you remain fresh in our hearts. Love you!
Hey Sam . . . Happy Valentines Day <3. Miss You Sam, so much everyday! There is this Huge void/emptiness in my heart and in my gut ~ my gut hurts and my heart aches all the time. I hate that I don't have a choice but to get used to living without You. I was thinking about Valentines days of the past. Remember how dad would always roll his eyes at me because I always gave you guyz a gift. It would be by your bed or on your bed for when you woke up! Never anything big, usually a tshirt & dvd, cd or playstation game and of course "sweet factory" candy and a heart shape tin of cinnamin altoids. Not only do I miss seeing you, touching you, hearing you, talking to you, and of course worrying about you! I Miss shopping for you, Giving you things, Picking out things for You, saving dinner for you or bringing home dinner to you, telling you things and laughing with you!!! Happy Valentines Day baby!! I Love You!!!
Hi Sam, Miss you so very much everyday. I think about you all the time. Life is so different without you. Hate that we have memories without you, pictures without you, days, weeks, months & years without you. I think in terms all the time of; "that was when Sam was still here" or "that was after Thanksgiving". It still seems so unbelievable that You really aren't with us any longer. That it could have been prevented. If you had seized when you were awake and/or with friends around~you'd most likely still be here!!! I Thank God that Ray was in Mammoth when Vince seized. That he even asked where Vince was out of the blue like that, then found him! I think it had to be You leading Ray to Vince. So that your little brother didn't leave us the same way. Just too many coincidences, besides you always being his (everyone's) protector. Your friends called you "Mustafa" after all. (I bet Your still watching over them.) Your friends all seem to be doing great, can't believe that most of them are in their 20's or turning 20 this year. Many still call or stop by once in awhile. We love seeing them and catching up on their lives. We feel honored that they still keep in touch. Which really just confirms what we always saw, what dedicated, loyal, and caring friends they were and still are to you. I wonder all the time what you would be doing if you were here: working with dad?, college? trade school? snowboard bum? where would you be: Mammoth?, Santa Barbara? or even San Diego? My heart is forever broken because we'll never know. I Love You Sam ~ Always & Forever, Mom
MY NOTE TO SAM / Denise Manocchia (aunt)
DEAREST SAM, THERE HAVE BEEN MANY TIMES OVER THE YEARS, I'VE LOOKED AT PICTURES OF YOU, FROM LONG AGO, ME HOLDING YOU, YOU WITH BIRTHDAY CAKE FROSTING (BLUE) ALL OVER YOUR FACE, AND SO CUTE, AND SMART, AND ALWAYS INTRESTED IN HOW, WHAT, WHY OF EVERYTHING AROUND YOU...THATS HOW LONG IT HAS BEEN. WELL NOW, YOU GET TO DO IT ALL OVER, IN ANOTHER WORLD, WITH NEW THINGS TO ASK ABOUT!!! NEVER LOSE THAT. i LOVE YOU SAM, YOU WERE SUCH A SPARK OF LIFE, AND THATS HOW I WILL ALWAYS KNOW YOU, THAT LITTLE KID, ALWAYS ASKING QUESTIONS, SO SMALL THEN, THAT I COULD HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS, I'VE MISSED THAT, YET REMEMBER HOW WONDERFUL IT WAS TO ROCK YOU TO SLEEP. SLEEP WELL ANGEL, LOVE AUNT DENISE Close
SAM/ Lucas P. (friend)
hey Sam, i still cant believe yer gone, its bin a year and its like it happened yesterday. the world misses u sam, and uve clearly changed everyone u knew, i know yer in a way better place , day by day we will all be up there with you one day Close
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